“Maybe”

 

“Maybe one day you’ll look at me and I’ll be all you need.

Maybe one day you’ll finally say all the things I have felt everyday.

Maybe one day you’ll see it’s crazy hard to be without me.

Maybe one day you’ll reach out for this and I’ll be there for you to kiss.

Maybe one day you’ll finally turn my fantasy into our reality.

Maybe one day doesn’t actually come and I’ll see that and actually be done.”

“Rinehart’s Poetry” by Ryan L. Rinehart

“Given the fact that you can be into someone doesn’t necessarily mean that you are in love with them. It could as easily be that an infatuation is occurring and you need to feed that craving. To satiate that hunger for that particular person in that space and time.”  – Ryan L. Rinehart

“And if I don’t wait, I won’t look, and not be disappointed. I honestly think I will be kinda happy to not search or wait, to just be finished with it all. As fickle as love seems to be I seem to capture it in ink for all that it can, or all that it should be. So it is with ill gotten gains of scars and pain that I do refrain from the very thing I desire to have and to hold but for some reason can’t attain. Love, I can tell you stories that would make you cry, love, live and die in my words alone, but to feel it, to feel it to the bone, now that’s where words run out and I find myself alone. Like every letter is the detail, as the punctuation meets the exclamation, I die there in love upon the page.”

by Ryan L. Rinehart

“As she stood there unaware of the walls she was bringing down within me, I wanted to warn her, for she had learned all the hard parts of my life, even things that I would never forgive myself for, yet she was still there beside me. She still needed to be warned though, she needed to know, it’s not the hard spots about me that’ll get to you and cut you deeply in the depths of feeling, no it’s my soft spots I have even after all the hell I have been through. Those things about me will tear at your heart strings, the things I have to do because I am compelled to do them. I have one of the hardest minds paired with the softest heart. Yet she was peeling back the layers bit by bit, and soon she’d see, soon she’d be too late, soon she’d be in love with me, but I have to warn her about her fate. I have spent years getting the balance of these two sides equally matched, she’s only experienced half of the whole picture, other’s had been to this point, only to find themselves getting left behind or unwilling to risk and invest the time. Crossroads in life, journeys to be chose, most want the easy path, sure you can enjoy the scene, but to be in it, a part of it, that’s were it is, that gives life it’s meaning. Soon she’ll have to decide which path is hers, and if it’s with mine.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“The truth is when you’ve got that soul fire ignited by someone, you’ve got to watch out and not let it burn you up, your time, your attention, your entire existence should not be consumed and engulfed by the flames. If you are finding that you can’t be without them, then the fire you’re stoking is anti-loneliness and not true passion. People mistake this all the time and wonder why they were burned by a lover. It’s not mundane to have someone that stays there on your mind and you can function just fine, in fact that’s the sign of a healthy relationship. When things in your life get ignored or set aside for someone, well that’s what will happen to you eventually in the relationship. So focus on being your regular self and find the one who adds to it, your daily life should become emphasized and not compromised with love.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“Only the mind can put itself back in place, the same goes for the heart, now when it comes to the soul, well that takes a higher power to restore no matter what your belief system is. Most veterans have been witnessed to these truths. Most veterans have a bruised soul, then there are the ones with fractured hearts and worse yet those with shattered minds. That’s why with us that served the saying of “leave no man behind” is so important. Just because they maybe here at home in the states doesn’t mean that the person has made it home. We as a nation owe our veterans a piece of our own heart, time from your mind, and for us to do some soul searching for the betterment of all mankind. So do what every man and woman who has served or is serving a favor, take your own oath to protect us from all enemies, foreign and domestic. We stepped up for you, now stand with us. We are or were your first line of defense, the second lies with the police officers, and we need to stand for justice, we need to stop the nonsense, all this strife, what is it good for? We can’t be a nation at war with each other and scream for civility, justice, and harmony. Every soldier and sailor knows discrimination at all levels and kinds, yet when asked if they’d give thier lives for yours, they smile and nod and say yes every time. No body is perfect, no matter the uniform, yet to serve in a system that has now made the criminal or terrorist out to be a hero of sorts, well maybe it’s not the veteran whose soul is bruised, whose heart is fractured, whose mind is shattered. Maybe, just maybe, it is society that’s truly disturbed.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“I feel that like most of the time that a person can be much like a book in that they too can invite pain, misery, joy and love, happiness and sadness and that is their destiny to do so. Since they are the author’s of their life, if they chose to do so. And I do try to write in my own life my wants and needs, but sometimes, it’s that very search that leaves one empty. I know how to love loudly and I know how to love quietly, I know how to love completely but I don’t know how to love slightly. The way one reads a book, you’ve got to start at the beginning, go on the journey to learn to love it deeply so you’ll stay to the end. And that’s all my problems with love my friends, I never fear to read what’s there, but many have had hidden chapters they wished not to bare, causing heartache that turns my feelings into I don’t care. If only one day I find a girl whose story merges into mine and together make a new story, one of a lifetime. Well then that will be the greatest unwritten story of my life, for I will be to busy with her to put pen to paper, and all I can do is wish. In every heartbeat there’s time for a wish, in every well instead of penny’s I will throw a dime, and in everything I do I am sending out the vibe.”
“For the Love of Hart” by Ryan L. Rinehart

“Even after everything, how we ended, I truly do hope and wish you to be happy. Please take care of yourself, and that part of me that you took with you, that will forever be yours. I still linger in memories and could be’s, the fantasies go on in my mind, they create a new world where I hear myself say such things to you that I adore. For instance, I get to a point where I tell you that no matter what I wanna hear what’s on your mind, day or night, no matter the time. If it’s four am and you’ve awaken from some crazy dream and can’t quite explain it but need to tell it, I wanna be the one to hear it. Or why your morning drive to work pissed you off so much you just can’t think, or why your mom seems to be acting like such a bitch, but most of all I wanna pass all the small talk and get to your depths, to get to the heart of where you exist. I want to touch the place no one truly ever gets. You’ve called it your darkness, but I don’t see it that way, because I too have put things away out of the light, put away so that they seem hid behind. I wanted to know your childhood memories, good, the bad, the suffering, but most of all, I wanted to know if you still had it in you, that kid who saw magic, who didn’t give up on believing. Because when I looked at you the kid in me saw the magic once again, it was you who had me believing. And if I could do for you what you did for me, what would that be? Nothing more than two souls saving each other by connecting. That’s why, I remain in a solitary state, and there I will remain, I guess it’s to say, even though it’s over, I still love you unconditionally.
– Ryan L. Rinehart

“Even after everything, how we ended, I truly do hope and wish you to be happy. Please take care of yourself, and that part of me that you took with you, that will forever be yours. I still linger in memories and could be’s, the fantasies go on in my mind, they create a new world where I hear myself say such things to you that I adore. For instance, I get to a point where I tell you that no matter what I wanna hear what’s on your mind, day or night, no matter the time. If it’s four am and you’ve awaken from some crazy dream and can’t quite explain it but need to tell it, I wanna be the one to hear it. Or why your morning drive to work pissed you off so much you just can’t think, or why your mom seems to be acting like such a bitch, but most of all I wanna pass all the small talk and get to your depths, to get to the heart of where you exist. I want to touch the place no one truly ever gets. You’ve called it your darkness, but I don’t see it that way, because I too have put things away out of the light, put away so that they seem hid behind. I wanted to know your childhood memories, good, the bad, the suffering, but most of all, I wanted to know if you still had it in you, that kid who saw magic, who didn’t give up on believing. Because when I looked at you the kid in me saw the magic once again, it was you who had me believing. And if I could do for you what you did for me, what would that be? Nothing more than two souls saving each other by connecting. That’s why, I remain in a solitary state, and there I will remain, I guess it’s to say, even though it’s over, I still love you unconditionally.
– Ryan L. Rinehart

“A moment could have passed and you could have been in it yet you were to busy looking for the one, causing you to miss it. Forest indeed have trees, but did you see the ants, the crickets and the bees? Sometimes the big picture needs broken down to individual scenes, but you still must be in them, you still must play your part. Sure there will be big moments that take your breath away, but it’s always the little ones that steal your heart.”
– Ryan L. Rinehart

“She had been broken and no longer trusted words from anyone, but I was a words kinda guy, so I said then your words mean shit too if it’s words you don’t trust. How about this view, stop blaming the words and blame the individual who used them, cause I don’t know about you but to me words can convey so much and clarifies what isn’t said. I could see she didn’t want to let go of her pain, so I did what I thought best, I kissed her forehead and walked away. Sometimes you can’t save someone unless they are willing, a broken heart holding on will never heal, she had replaced love with pain and that’s all she will ever feel. Being indifferent isn’t different, it’s being unreal.”
– Ryan L. Rinehart