“Moments and Memories”

I am not sleeping
Cause I am always dreamin
About what you and I could have been
We were lovers
You were my best friend
Now we’re strangers
I still wonder why did it hafta end

It’s all moments
And memories
Holdin onto you
You holdin onto me
All in these places we used to love
Now it’s haunting me

You’re there in my evenings
Girl, I wish you knew
How you get to me
Lying in bed
Staring at the ceiling
Thinking about you
Caught up in my feelings

It’s all moments
And memories
Holdin onto you
You holdin onto me
All in these places we used to love
Now it’s haunting me

I am not sleeping
Cause I am always dreamin
Caught up in my feelings
Thinking about you
How you used to hold onto me
Girl, don’t you know
Don’t you know
How it’s haunting me
All these moments and memories

By Ryan L. Rinehart

“Love isn’t blind, it just refuses to see the imperfections, nuances, and the mundanes in the other person. It’s over time that one picks away at love and sees everything that someone is, and at that point is when love is tested, to stay, or to go, because when you see somebody in their completeness and continue to love them, well that’s how love grows. As well as walking away seems to be leaving love behind, it’s understanding love, what it is suppose to be, that one should seek. No love isn’t blind, it just sees differently.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“You’ve got to kiss her before your lips reach hers, in your movement, in your smile, in the gaze of your eyes, you should transmit the intent so she knows you realize that it’s only her who will ever satisfy you. You’ve got to surround her with your mind before you take her in your arms, hugged from within so she knows that to you she is a win. For a man to love a woman, it’s something of a damaging transition, to go from nothing to all that feeling, it is indeed a journey to prepare for. Once love has hit you, beaten you bloody, for bad or worse or great and better, when you find her, none of that matters. A man should reach his woman before in her presence, before you touch her, tantalize her, passion is a noble pursuit, use it to love her, keep her, and pursue her.”

“Affairs of Hart”

by Ryan L. Rinehart

“And if I don’t wait, I won’t look, and not be disappointed. I honestly think I will be kinda happy to not search or wait, to just be finished with it all. As fickle as love seems to be I seem to capture it in ink for all that it can, or all that it should be. So it is with ill gotten gains of scars and pain that I do refrain from the very thing I desire to have and to hold but for some reason can’t attain. Love, I can tell you stories that would make you cry, love, live and die in my words alone, but to feel it, to feel it to the bone, now that’s where words run out and I find myself alone. Like every letter is the detail, as the punctuation meets the exclamation, I die there in love upon the page.”

by Ryan L. Rinehart

“As she stood there unaware of the walls she was bringing down within me, I wanted to warn her, for she had learned all the hard parts of my life, even things that I would never forgive myself for, yet she was still there beside me. She still needed to be warned though, she needed to know, it’s not the hard spots about me that’ll get to you and cut you deeply in the depths of feeling, no it’s my soft spots I have even after all the hell I have been through. Those things about me will tear at your heart strings, the things I have to do because I am compelled to do them. I have one of the hardest minds paired with the softest heart. Yet she was peeling back the layers bit by bit, and soon she’d see, soon she’d be too late, soon she’d be in love with me, but I have to warn her about her fate. I have spent years getting the balance of these two sides equally matched, she’s only experienced half of the whole picture, other’s had been to this point, only to find themselves getting left behind or unwilling to risk and invest the time. Crossroads in life, journeys to be chose, most want the easy path, sure you can enjoy the scene, but to be in it, a part of it, that’s were it is, that gives life it’s meaning. Soon she’ll have to decide which path is hers, and if it’s with mine.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“The truth is when you’ve got that soul fire ignited by someone, you’ve got to watch out and not let it burn you up, your time, your attention, your entire existence should not be consumed and engulfed by the flames. If you are finding that you can’t be without them, then the fire you’re stoking is anti-loneliness and not true passion. People mistake this all the time and wonder why they were burned by a lover. It’s not mundane to have someone that stays there on your mind and you can function just fine, in fact that’s the sign of a healthy relationship. When things in your life get ignored or set aside for someone, well that’s what will happen to you eventually in the relationship. So focus on being your regular self and find the one who adds to it, your daily life should become emphasized and not compromised with love.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“Only the mind can put itself back in place, the same goes for the heart, now when it comes to the soul, well that takes a higher power to restore no matter what your belief system is. Most veterans have been witnessed to these truths. Most veterans have a bruised soul, then there are the ones with fractured hearts and worse yet those with shattered minds. That’s why with us that served the saying of “leave no man behind” is so important. Just because they maybe here at home in the states doesn’t mean that the person has made it home. We as a nation owe our veterans a piece of our own heart, time from your mind, and for us to do some soul searching for the betterment of all mankind. So do what every man and woman who has served or is serving a favor, take your own oath to protect us from all enemies, foreign and domestic. We stepped up for you, now stand with us. We are or were your first line of defense, the second lies with the police officers, and we need to stand for justice, we need to stop the nonsense, all this strife, what is it good for? We can’t be a nation at war with each other and scream for civility, justice, and harmony. Every soldier and sailor knows discrimination at all levels and kinds, yet when asked if they’d give thier lives for yours, they smile and nod and say yes every time. No body is perfect, no matter the uniform, yet to serve in a system that has now made the criminal or terrorist out to be a hero of sorts, well maybe it’s not the veteran whose soul is bruised, whose heart is fractured, whose mind is shattered. Maybe, just maybe, it is society that’s truly disturbed.” – Ryan L. Rinehart

“I feel that like most of the time that a person can be much like a book in that they too can invite pain, misery, joy and love, happiness and sadness and that is their destiny to do so. Since they are the author’s of their life, if they chose to do so. And I do try to write in my own life my wants and needs, but sometimes, it’s that very search that leaves one empty. I know how to love loudly and I know how to love quietly, I know how to love completely but I don’t know how to love slightly. The way one reads a book, you’ve got to start at the beginning, go on the journey to learn to love it deeply so you’ll stay to the end. And that’s all my problems with love my friends, I never fear to read what’s there, but many have had hidden chapters they wished not to bare, causing heartache that turns my feelings into I don’t care. If only one day I find a girl whose story merges into mine and together make a new story, one of a lifetime. Well then that will be the greatest unwritten story of my life, for I will be to busy with her to put pen to paper, and all I can do is wish. In every heartbeat there’s time for a wish, in every well instead of penny’s I will throw a dime, and in everything I do I am sending out the vibe.”
“For the Love of Hart” by Ryan L. Rinehart

“Even after everything, how we ended, I truly do hope and wish you to be happy. Please take care of yourself, and that part of me that you took with you, that will forever be yours. I still linger in memories and could be’s, the fantasies go on in my mind, they create a new world where I hear myself say such things to you that I adore. For instance, I get to a point where I tell you that no matter what I wanna hear what’s on your mind, day or night, no matter the time. If it’s four am and you’ve awaken from some crazy dream and can’t quite explain it but need to tell it, I wanna be the one to hear it. Or why your morning drive to work pissed you off so much you just can’t think, or why your mom seems to be acting like such a bitch, but most of all I wanna pass all the small talk and get to your depths, to get to the heart of where you exist. I want to touch the place no one truly ever gets. You’ve called it your darkness, but I don’t see it that way, because I too have put things away out of the light, put away so that they seem hid behind. I wanted to know your childhood memories, good, the bad, the suffering, but most of all, I wanted to know if you still had it in you, that kid who saw magic, who didn’t give up on believing. Because when I looked at you the kid in me saw the magic once again, it was you who had me believing. And if I could do for you what you did for me, what would that be? Nothing more than two souls saving each other by connecting. That’s why, I remain in a solitary state, and there I will remain, I guess it’s to say, even though it’s over, I still love you unconditionally.
– Ryan L. Rinehart